Art: Jason Limon
“There’s a yearning that drives addiction… be it to alcohol and drugs, or sex, love, you name it. But like I’ve said many times, what does The Wanting want? What is it? When are you going to be happy? When are you going to arrive at this place that you’ve been pursuing either through passion of passivity? When are you going to arrive there? There is something just below the grid of behaviours, the equations that make up the self. Just beyond it… there is a secondary observing self.”Russell Brand
Fortitude behind the times,
requires more than just the lust –
a secret known to many,
oh – forgotten child of dust.
Remember where you came from
and to back which you will go –
all of this reveals
in the tao of the flow.
Remove your only knowledge,
for together we will row,
gently down a river swaying,
backwards, forwards, to & fro.
I knew that you could hear me,
and don’t wonder if you know.
You’ll remember, when you see me –
why it needed this way to go.
Walking through Manchester City Centre and crossing paths with a stranger, at the threshold between us – we stopped and looked at each other. In that moment – he asked me an unusual question.“Would you rather swap a Dolphin with a Scuba Diver?” He carried on walking past, I stopped to think of my answer. I looked back to reply “I think I’d prefer the Dolphin.” He looked over his shoulder, confused and with a quizzical expression – as though he had never asked any question at all.
It would be in contradiction to the conservative nature of the instincts,’ said Freud, ‘if the goal of life were a state of things which had never been attained.’ No, he said, what we desire must necessarily be an old state of things. Organisms strive, circuitously, to return to the inorganic – the dust, the stone, the earth – from which they came. “The aim of all life is death,” said Freud
To follow on from the previous post on Kundalini, today’s spread opened with the Minoan Snake Goddess from Crete. This ancient symbol, these figures standing as a doorway between two serpents, or two cats or two rods – can be traced back through many cultures. According to the series, Magical Egypt – it could potentially represent the hypnogogic state, which is the combination of being asleep and awake at the same time, called Lucid Dreaming – which is a state of consciousness the Ancient Egyptians were known to be skilled at maintaining. The hypnogogic state is said to be as though you are trying to balance on top of a ball, on top water. From my own personal experiences with those dream states, becoming conscious while asleep, Inception-style dreaming – I can attest to the most amazing things you can experience there – such as flying, or my personal favourite was, swimming in the ocean with Dolphins.
Being awake and asleep are polar opposites to each other, as is the past and the future. If then, we can wake ourselves up in the dream at night, perhaps by day – we could learn to be more “asleep.” Relax more, and allow that dreamlike flexibility and symbolism to enter into our daily lives. I call it, getting into the flow state with life itself. Full faith and trust that our reality has our back, we don’t need to control everything and we can learn how to intuitively interpret our daily experiences to find the gold of our own wisdom hidden within them. As though children with innocent eyes, viewing the world as an ever expanding journey of awesome.
When we realise we have a deep desire to die, we can begin to truly decide to live. The greatest adventure we can have then, is into the boundlessness of all what is truly possible for ourselves. It’s all our choice.
As soon as you reach the beginning, you reach the end.
In the Astrology of Fate, Liz Greene indicated that the “volcano is often located wherever Pluto is found in the horoscope. ” Wherever Pluto is located we may have a surge of explosive emotions erupt in our lives.
“The tale of the apes, I think, relates to the observations of Sigmund Freud on the goal of all life. Freud was, whatever else he was, the great student of our desire, our will to live happily ever after. He studied our wishes, our fulfilment of our wishes, in the narrative of our dreams. He believed we rearranged our stories in our dream-life to give ourselves happy endings, each according to his or her secret needs. (He claimed not to know what women really wanted, and this ignorance colours and changes his stories.) Then, in the repeated death-dreams of the soldiers of the First World War he discovered a narrative that contradicted this desire for happiness, for wish-fulfilment. He discovered, he thought, a desire for annihilation. He rethought the whole history of organic life under the sun, and came to the conclusion that what he called the ‘organic instincts’ were essentially conservative – that they reacted to stimuli by adapting in order to preserve, as far as possible, their original state.‘
It would be in contradiction to the conservative nature of the instincts,’ said Freud, ‘if the goal of life were a state of things which had never been attained.’ No, he said, what we desire must necessarily be an old state of things. Organisms strive, circuitously, to return to the inorganic – the dust, the stone, the earth – from which they came. “The aim of all life is death,” said Freud, telling his creation story in which the creation strives to return to the state before life was breathed into it, in which the shrinking of the peau de chagrin, the diminishing of the ape, is not the terrible concomitant of the life-force, but its secret desire.”
– Excerpt From: BYATT, Antonia S – Djinn in the Nightingale’s Eye
“The action began in October 1829 at the Palais-Royal. A young man walks into a gambling house and loses. Ruined, suicidal, he wanders in Paris and enters an antique dealer where he discovers a veritable treasure cave before being interrupted by the almost “magical” appearance of an old man: “A painter would have, with two different expressions and in two brushstrokes, make this figure a beautiful image of the Eternal Father or the sneering mask of Mephistopheles … ” . The old man first takes the depressed young aristocrat, Raphaël de Valentin, for a thief, but the latter deceives him. The old man then takes out a skin of sorrow of a surprising aspect:“The black grains of sorrow were so carefully polished and so well browned, the capricious stripes were so clean and so clear, that, like facets of garnet, the roughness of this oriental leather formed so many small hearths which reflected vividly. the light. “ . He then shows him characters embedded in the skin which explain (in Sanskrit) the principle of the skin of sorrows: “With each will, I will decrease like your days. “ .
“Adventure is not yet immersion in that oneness, but it is what it feels like to swim within that oneness. Oneness cannot be known mentally, even though it can be logically deduced. Oneness can only be felt when enough serotonin is produced within our bodies. It is not simply a matter of pumping more seratonin into your body that creates the experience of the higher frequencies. Seratonin is only one link in a whole chain of interconnected chemicals (such as pinoline and harmine) that are secreted within the laboratory of the body. Higher consciousness comes about due to the delicate balance of all these chemicals in highly specific quantities and cocktails. So exact and finely tuned is this balance inside each person that it can only come about through a natural inner organic process. This is the great adventure that you take as the 35th Gift arises in your inner being — you enter a process of alchemical co-creation within your own body. ”Excerpt From: Richard Rudd. “Gene Keys.” iBooks.
“That which has a divine cause,
not that whose cause a human person fails to understand”
of Miracles Definition.
Codon Ring of Miracles – Gene Key 35
As the single heart of the Ring of Miracles, the 35th Gene Key brings the miraculous into the world. It opens up all kinds of possibilities to those who allow their minds to become like a child’s. To the child, anything seems possible — this is the state of boundlessness. To activate such streams of miracles, you have to break free from the beliefs and limitations imposed on your mind by the world and those around you. Throughout history, men have flown, ascended and dematerialized right before people’s eyes. Anything is possible in the Ring of Miracles. It asks us to break the laws of form and to manifest miracles so that people can expand their awareness and open their hearts to a greater mode of being.
“She stood there, holding her glass weight. And the djinn kissed her hand, and vanished towards Lake Ontario like a huge cloud of bees, leaving behind on the pavement a sheepskin jacket that shrank slowly, to childsize, to doll size, to matchbox size, to a few fizzing atoms, and was gone. He left also a moving heap of dread-locks, like some strange hedgehog, which stirred a little, ran along a few feet, and vanished down a drain.
– Excerpt From: BYATT, Antonia – Djinn in the Nightingale’s Eye.